How did I start my journey with communicating with animals and healing?
I came from a space of darkness. Everywhere I turned people wanted to hurt me, they had their own agendas, and they played their mind games. It felt so confusing to me, for someone would say something, yet it felt so wrong to me, I knew they didn’t mean what they said and I didn’t understand why you would say something if you don’t mean it. I am one who speaks from the soul. I don’t like to play games, and I find myself being brutally honest, which some humans find challenging. Humans tend to look at life as conditional, they are always wanting something ~ at least, that was my experience of life, and everyone was taking. Except for the animals. I always had such a deep love of animals, I could watch them for hours and I just knew what they were trying to say. I thought nothing of it, as I was raised with firm beliefs that alternative ways of being needed to be treated as schizophrenia and medication which was what happened to me. It seems that by not playing the human mind games, I was seen as playing games that no one understood. The reality is, I spoke from my soul when I did speak.
A few years ago now I went to a workshop. I loved animals, and I needed something different within my life ~ a friend gave me a brochure and no matter how many times I tried to read it, I couldn’t comprehend the words, I just knew I had to go. While there, I lay with a wolf skin which opened something within me. A sense of coming home to my truth, not the lie that I had been living. My life purpose was around animals, around being free to speak from my soul again, for you see, my voice had been silenced. In the workshop I had a healing with a friend, she took me on a past life regression to see my life in Atlantis, and while I know I had many lifetimes there, one of them was as an animal communicator. It was then that I started to see the truth of my being. During this regression I went to a council and asked why I was here within this life. The answer that came to me was: to heal animals and the environment. To be a bridge for people to understand animals, and through compassion and support of animals to heal the wounding of humans. Just a small task really! The next morning I couldn’t stop writing. I had reclaimed my written word. I wrote to people telling them how I felt, I connected with their animal guides and channelled messages and I felt so inspired yet terrified. I didn’t understand what was happening to me.
I asked people for feedback with the writing, for I was writing things that I had no conscious awareness of, and it was hard to trust myself to give it to them ~ yet there was a niggling voice telling me to. So I had to trust and believe in myself, and I had spent 30 odd years not believing in myself.
I had opened the door to feeling again, and the sense of freedom to speak from my soul is unexplainable. First I connected to people’s animal guides really easily ~ loads of messages for people and I tried all of the techniques I could find to speak to animals. I wanted that more than anything. You see, I wanted the reassurance from my pets that they were happy, so that is all that I wanted to hear. I just couldn’t communicate with them. I was in my head, wanting for the wrong reasons. I had to let go of my need. I expected to be able to hear their voices, and now sometimes I do, but mostly I feel what they are feeling in my body, and I have developed my intuitive ‘just knowing’ skills, my Claircognizance and clairsentience. I felt the love in my chest burning like a fire from my youngest cat, then my middle cat, my dog and surprisingly, my fish. I had connected. They loved me. I had to learn to listen to how they communicate. It is like different animals speaking a different language, you have to identify what language are they speaking in. are they sending me pictures, feelings, body sensations, memories, words or are they sending me the ‘just knowing’ information.
I had to believe in myself, and I had to surrender which was not easy for me. Surrendering my need to control the situation, control how we communicate, lose my human expectation of how things have to happen and put it back to their level. But the best part, is that animals speak from their soul. They don’t play games. They say it how it is, honest, and they don’t run from the truth. They see life from a positive perspective, it is only when they are trying to teach humans that they take on our behaviour to mirror for us. They still feel rejection and abandonment, yet they easily forgive and give you unconditional love and loyalty to humans. To me that is what is most inspiring about animals ~ they are unconditional, and while I have found many beautiful humans that are like that, there are so many that are still conditional.
The hardest thing for me with communicating with animals, is hearing my pets tell me that they have done what they came into this life to do, and it is time to move on. On the other hand, what a gift to be prepared and have closure for both of us. The best thing, is being able to connect humans to their animals, and to help them heal and transform with the help of animals. I see how throughout my whole life, I have been guided and supported by animals especially during my darkest times, and they have helped me to heal from my dark past. I just had to look for them, and I see them now. My desire in life is to help other humans heal and transform from their darkness into a being of light by showing them how the animals within their life support them.